little did i know

how possibly/wonderfully applicable this album could be, but that's the great thing about art; a great chunk of it is what _you_ read into it... (especially if you just take out the lines that you really want to see/feel/hear/say and ignore the other lines that really just don't apply).

in any case, this song has been with me since i first heard the album and it's the only one i've bothered to fully transcribe from the cd. (alright alright, i know they're printed in the litte booklet, but i was at work and not feeling like getting work done, so the fact that i chose this song and actually blew all that time must mean something, no?)

it could have been good
it coulda been something special
it may have had real potential
it never could show
it coulda been great
it coulda been something alright
but we never did keep it that tight
so whaddya know?
i get up at 5am i so don't need those dreams that i used to have

it coulda been swell
it could have been off the hook now
if we ever had what it took now
i haven't a clue
i think it's as well
we may have been on the right track
finding all the pieces we lack
but what can you do?
now i see that these are cards we drew some time ago, so if you don't know:

i can do it anywhere with anyone at anytime don't you forget
this is my life and it's going to be good, don't you know
not a promise or a threat or an ultimatum, though i can do that too
i'm just telling you, i've got this life i've got to live
i'm just following through

i dishonor the past
being so loose with my time
i could stand accused of high crimes
in the court of the dead
and i could be next
on a page about to turn soon
so i'm movin' my ass at high noon
you heard what i said
i could say i hope i'm not misread, but that's all right
i'm quite ok with losing that fight

-- the dismemberment plan, "following through" (off of "change")

i like to read/hear it as independent and triumphant with a hints of sorrow (and maybe you'd agree if you heard the song), but i can understand seeing it as a bit selfish too... but don't you need to be at least a little selfish to be independent?

*shrug* *sigh*